Deep down, we all wish to love ourselves, to spend the necessary time to nurture our minds, bodies, and souls, to connect with our inner child that lies within, that only wants us to be present with him/her, to tune out the “noise” of the external world, and just be. Why is it then that many struggle with the journey of self-love. Why does forgiveness seem challenging at times, especially when we truly want to forgive deep down. How can a simple phrase like “letting go” give you an impression internally that you have to run a marathon of some kind in order to experience its freedom?
I have been blessed to have learned a great deal on my journey over the past several weeks, having had many of my own questions be answered through life lessons and through “digital downloads” from the Divine. I received guidance from my soul to head to London, Ontario during the Memorial Day weekend to see Anita Moorjani speak at her “Letting Go” self-love workshop at Centennial Hall. At first, I wondered why I was being shown to see Anita once again, especially since I had seen her previously just last March at Hay House‘s “I Can Do It” event in Toronto, Ontario, Canada. That answer would be revealed, just like all answers are in life, in divine timing. I had a strong feeling that I needed to not only hear the truth, but experience it firsthand.
You know that you are meant to do something important in your life, you may experience some form of noticeable resistance from your ego. There is no need to panic or be alarmed in any way. This is you stepping outside of your “comfort zone” and into the reality of where you are meant to be. If you are on the beginning of your spiritual path, then you may not clearly understand what I mean by “noticeable resistance from your ego.” If you remember the 80’s cult classic film “Say Anything,” the scene where Lloyd Dobler (played by John Cusack) is trying to get the attention of the girl of his dreams, Diane Court (played by Ione Skye), by awakening her from her slumber. How you ask? By holding his boombox (remember those?) over his head, blaring Peter Gabriel’s “In Your Eyes.” Imagine your presence as Diane. Imagine Lloyd’s boombox with the volume turned up all the way as your ego, trying to distract you from what you are in the currently in the present moment of. Just a little visual to simplify things.
So, yes, I was graciously presented the “noise” from my ego the day before the workshop and the morning of, in various forms: having to “get there” at a certain time, the fear of getting lost, and yes, my personal favorite, clock-watching when I was in the hot tub. Yes, one of the things I hope you learn from reading this blog is that it’s important for you to love all parts of yourself, including your ego, when it “goes John Cusack” on you. Even when you are in a hot tub on a relaxing weekend getaway.
When I arrived at Centennial Hall, I was surprised to see, to my delight, a very quaint and simple set-up for the event, with tables on the floor level of the hall, with seating for around 200 people. I then felt this would be a more intimate setting than that Anita’s keynote speech at the “I Can Do It” event, one that I would be able to resonate even stronger with my soul.
I knew I was not going to be disappointed in any way. How can you when you make an investment in your soul? The beautiful thing about Anita’s work is that she inspires you to feel what she has to say and let it connect with your heart, so that you can speak your truth from a vibrant place of love and gratitude.
Initially, my intention was to pen a blog about my entire weekend in London, but a miracle beyond anything I could put into words began taking form in my life, which I will share with you all very soon (again, when the Universe reveals the time). I was, instead, guided, to take what I learned from my time hearing and seeing in London, combined with the messages from Eckhart Tolle‘s “The Power of Now” (which was placed to me by the Divine at the exact moment it was needed) and my meditations, prayers, and my collections of present moments. And here, on the 7th of July (7.7: no coincidence), I find myself being guided to speak my truth in this form.
What I hope many of you take from reading this blog is that no matter what your five senses tell you, no matter your surroundings, your life situation, your health, or your finances, you CAN love yourself. When you make the decision to say those very words: “I Love Myself,” you single-handedly tell the Universe you are now ready to co-create your transformation. Simultaneously, you find the key to the “prison” you may find yourself in and begin to unlock the door, where your next steps will feel like your first, but filled with more freedom.
There were many times in my own life when I thought I did not matter. I struggled with my own unworthiness for many years, but made a commitment to myself on my self-love journey, knowing that the more I loved myself, the more I was compassionate to myself on all levels, that my worthiness would blossom, like a golden apple off of the tree of abundance. And guess what? That fruit has been and continues to be some of the most delicious “food” I have ever enjoyed and experienced. Your energy, your value is infinite. It’s priceless. That’s just how wonderful you are!
If you have difficulties in making decisions, forgiving yourself/someone else, and/or attracting the right people into your life, along with financial abundance, then you have more good news coming your way! When you take the time to love yourself more, whether it be through being in nature, getting a massage, sitting in silence, or drinking a green juice, the less you have to worry. It becomes easier to make decisions, to forgive yourself and those around you, and to attract the right relationships and money. Speaking openly, it is possible. On all fronts. Everything you see externally is a reflection of how you feel on the inside. The world around you is your mirror. If you believe that something is going to be difficult, then that’s what your experience will be. You are sending a message to the Divine, albeit maybe unconsciously. So, if you are navigating through your path and are not yet experiencing the results you wish to see, do not give up. Stay true to yourself. Stay true to your love. And be gentle on yourself. Remember: You are your best friend, not a doormat. You have a higher intelligence working with you. “Time” is on your side (perfect segway for Rod Stewart’s “Young Turks,” one of my favorite songs to listen to in meditation.
On this journey, you may feel like you are doing dancing between two worlds, one where you speak your truth and live it every day, the other where you want to “fit in.” You may have people in your life that are not yet ready to hear the truth. Several or all of those people may symbolize your paradigms of the past. You might get frustrated, angry, and/or confused, wondering why they don’t understand you and/or why they unconsciously misconstrue self-love as selfishness. Love them for who they are. Understand they are doing the best they can with the knowledge they have. Everything happens exactly the way it’s meant to. Trust in the process and know all of this is normal. The expression “practice makes perfect” rings true here. The more you practice loving yourself, the stronger you will feel: emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually. Your spiritual tools, your knowledge, and your intuition will all increase, not just for yourself, but for those whom you serve. With that being said, it’s very easy to place your full attention on where you want to be. Be present. Be in the now. You will appreciate life even more by being in each present moment of your path.
Rest in the fact that there’s no need to figure things out anymore. You are meant to do great things. You are beautiful. Give yourself a hug. In fact, give yourself several hugs during the day. One of the most amazing feelings you will ever have in your life is the day when you say to yourself: “There’s nothing wrong with me.” That happened to me in the month of June, where I realized that every part of me is divine and that I no longer need to experience my blessings and life lessons through unconscious pain and suffering. I wish, for you, that present moment is something you freeze in “time” and cherish forever.
The most vivid memory I recall from seeing Anita in London was her interaction with a woman in the audience who had cancer for little over two years. She was asking Anita for some feedback and advice, as her health was not where she wanted to be. Anita’s response to her was so profound: “Stop trying. Let go of working so hard. It’s happening.” When you shift your perspective and realize you don’t have to “do” anything, just be the love that you are, that’s when life reveals your own miracle.
My fellow empowered souls: It is happening for you. It is happening for all of us. Treasure your magnificence. You matter.